march 11, 2007

i'm sorry, i know i have been a bad blogger, but i have been terribly busy of late.

surely i've missed many good stories that have already passed out of my exceptionally brief memory buffer. sigh.

last night was my birthday party and i wanted to thank everyone for coming out to celebrate. the music was phenomenal. ory and jason just killed it, they were great. cindy doire and pat robitaille were exceptional. i bought both of their cds and cindy's is on right now actually. i love music...

tomorrow i go for my tonsillectomy and am off work for the week. i'm really hopeful that this will cure what ails me. wish me luck.

see you laters alligators.

march 17, 2007

i don't have a lot of consciousness left in me right now, and i've just finished archiving some of these posts and dealing with the rss file, so i'm not going to post much new content right now.

the following are "notes" from my facebook account, which i've used to update people over the last little while, solely because it has been easier than working on antimattr.com...making me lend even more thought to the advantages of converting to wordpress...anyway, here are said notes:

my birthday party

6:43pm Sunday, Mar 11

I just wanted to thank everyone that came out for my birthday.

I hope everyone had a wonderful time.

I am told that I had a tonne of fun ;)

Cheers, to love, luck and laughter.

tonsillectomy

8:12pm Monday, Mar 12

i am at home with my parents and victoria, and i'm recovering from my tonsillectomy.

thank you everyone for emailing me, i'm just watching a movie right now with everyone and may not get around to individual replies just yet, but i wanted to let the world know that i'm alive.

everything went well, although i'm in a lot of pain. huzzah for T3s, and i don't mean the terminator movie (although T2 was good in my books, think of it what you may).

peace and love,

-matt

tonsillectomy recovery

12:50am Thursday, Mar 15

it has been approximately 2 days and 13 hours since my operation.

i am a mess of pain and confusion.

i cannot swallow without tremendous pain, and sleep is fitful and fleeting. i have an incredibly sore neck and a headache like none i've ever known.

i have a 10 minute window every 4 hours, after taking my T3s, where i am able to sip chicken broth and eat some jello.

i think that i would be insane by now if victoria where not here and nursing me. she is the most compassionate and patient person i have ever known, and i wanted to thank her publicly (i love you baby).

my mom and dad have also been great to me, thank you both!

adrian, thanks for the use of your room ;)

i hope everyone is doing well, and that i can return to your world of solid food and non-delirium sooner than later.

thanks to everyone that has been sending me emails and such. i welcome further updates to keep me occupied.

peace and love,

-matt

tonsillectomy recovery - the legend continues (i.e., part 2)

10:47pm Friday, Mar 16

so the pain has been increasing over the last couple of days.

this morning, the T3 was insufficient; i was, without great pain, unable even to drink broth.

we (victoria and i) had previously spoken with my surgeon and he had offered up percocet as an alternative to the T3, but we had declined, thinking i'd be alright.

so, now that i was not alright, my dad called back in (victoria was off duty, hehe) only to find that my surgeon was off until tuesday. gah.

so, my dad (being an absolute gem) drove me to aurora to a walk-in clinic. oh, by the bye, talking has also now fallen outside of the range of things i can really do anymore--victoria has an uncanny ability to understand my mumblings though, it's really quite nifty. anyway, through handwritten notes and chewbacca-like noises i made the doctor aware of the fact that i wanted better drugs. and so, percocet was prescribed. this doc also gave me antibiotics, which i'm taking, but am unsure if i actually need or not.

so percocet is supposed to be ten times stronger than T3...

so far, it's only a little tiny bit more effective at dealing with this new level of pain (i.e., eating jello hurts, life sucks), but also knocks me out cold for a couple of hours afterward (which is fine by me, bye victoria, have fun with my parents). the only side effect is this odd sensation that my eyes are uncomfortable and must be closed and have pressure on them; so, i rub them.

and that's my world of pain right now. fun stuff eh?

for entertainment i've been listening to "the dawn and drew show" while falling asleep, but really am not that interested anymore.

also, i've been attempting reading wired magazine, but that is slow going b/c i can't focus.

victoria came back to bond head today, which made me very happy.

so cool! vicki brought me a birthday gift from alyssa (her housemate). for some reason (i'm an idiot), i still had not obtained gloves for this winter. alyssa, knowing this and being super-awesome, got me the neatest gloves ever! they're from 180s.com and use the exhale heating system (there is a magnetic flap sealed valve that you blow into to heat the gloves with your warm breath!).

i think that's so cool.

um, now i'm going to go glove my cold hands and lie down in wait of my next dosage.

...

don't worry, matt will be back soon, in the meantime, stay classy ontario et al.

through this haze i've been having a few worthwhile thoughts, and i'll try to get those up here tomorrow. one thing, before i go, there is a new version of wordweb (freeware) available that has a "hear a pronunciation" feature and incorporates tabbed online definition sources, snag it windows users! g'night.

march 19, 2007

i'm going to keep the clinical stuff really brief: the process is slowgoing, but i can tell that things are improving, and i'm crossing my fingers for a benchmark healing day anytime now. in truth, i wish i were strolling into work tomorrow, but unless they want a sleeping mumbling zombie, that would probably be ill-advised.

moving right along then...

my brother recommended that i check out the show dexter. i don't usually watch tv, but i'm really enjoying this series. my best stab at a description: it's like the silence of the lambs meets csi. if you check it out, let me know your thoughts.

presently, victoria is reading a guy gavriel kay novel, which makes me jealous. firstly, i can't focus on reading right now—presumably because of the controlled narcotics that i'm regularly ingesting—and secondly, i already have a book on the go with a dozen lined up behind it. (not from work-) james just told me that guy has a new book out, and i haven't even looked into it yet until just now...ysabel, i'm intrigued. well, it's on the list.

it's interesting, setting up shop on someone else's computer. for one thing, since i don't have server-side blogging software, i need to install an ftp program (i use filezilla). and then, of course, i am very partial to my text editor (jedit), so no settling for notepad for me. then come little things, like updating winamp so you can get more shoutcast radio stations, and installing my favourite firefox extensions, et cetera. it just makes me realize how damned obsessively particular i am.

hmmm...and those are my assorted pre-midnight-drugging-session thoughts for you. g'night folks.

march 23, 2007

healthwise, i'm really getting there now. i think this weekend will see me fully restored, huzzah!

right now, my sleeping schedule is completely messed up though. i've been waking up for pills every fours hours and essentially just taking naps night and day for the past couple of weeks. the habit is proving hard to break. for example, last night i worked on job-related stuff until about 2 a.m. this morning, then slept until about 4 a.m., piddled around on the computer for an hour, went back to bed for another couple of hours, and then started up this blog post...truth be told i'll probably hit another nap after this before getting back to this report i'm working on.

on a related note, when i stopped by the office on the way to toronto from my parents' house, in addition to picking up files that i'm working on now, i also received a fax; it would appear that i'm finally breaking the ice and am going to be going to court as an expert witness for my job! how incredibly nerve-racking...and exciting. this will go down in late april, at which time i'm sure you'll hear more.

among my distractions while working from home, google gave me $10 (USD) for free, but i can't use it because none of the goddamned vendors ship to canada...frustrating. if you're american, enjoy signing up for their new checkout service though.

finally, inspired by my current winamp selection—i hadn't mentioned this before, but xavier rudd is incredible, check him out. his music is paul simon meets ben harper. thank you moogan for putting him on my radar.

peace out.

march 25, 2007

there is a 24 hour grocery store in my building. that's how i found myself buying groceries at 5:30 a.m. this morning. for some reason i convinced myself that i wanted a nice big breakfast. so at 6:00 a.m. i sat down to some earl grey tea, scrambled eggs, sausages, toast, and some canned peaches for dessert. almost immediately i went back to sleep until after noon. i amuse myself...

when i woke up there was an im from my dad asking if adrian, my brother, had told me about the earthquake. heading over to adrian's blog, i found that he had indeed experienced an earthquake (related blog post)—craziness.

the thought of nature and human peril put me in mind of the time we were in fiji as kids and there was a cyclone and my dad had my brother and i run outside so that he could take our picture in the storm.

someone on my facebook posted these animations. they're great, huzzah for self-reference!


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